Bitch
I am afraid that i am a bitch. I am afraid that i don't know how to have a relationship that is not a competition. It's all i know.
I am going on a trip with a man soon. I made the flight reservations a month ago and then emailed the itinerary to this man. A month ago.
Yesterday he texted me to please send him the itinerary. I thought about this. Then i deliberately did the following:
1.) I went into my sent mail and forwarded him the previous email that i had sent.
2.) I then texted him that "i just re-sent the itinerary to your email."
WHY? WHY DID I DO THAT?
Seriously, i forget stuff sometimes too. Why could i not just have forwarded the fucking original itinerary? But i just had to make a point of letting him know that he had missed something.
It's all i know.
I don't feel very good about myself right now.
1 comment:
When I am hurt because others *forget* or just *can’t be bothered to listen* it is better to be direct and express my disappointment succinctly. Yet….after multiple repetitions, I go straight to passive aggressive. I read your post and projected myself into it even though it isn’t about me. Sorry :(
I don’t have much for you, but if you feel bad about the situation it might indicate you are growing. Changing behavior isn’t as simple as ripping off a bandage. Be patient with yourself.
~jaded
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