Monday, May 17, 2010

Out of nowhere

Sometimes it creeps up on me, despite my best efforts to distract myself with shiny objects and food.

We are NOT IN CONTROL. Any one who thinks we are is a fool.

Something horrible could, and often does, happen at any moment, without any warning.

Earthquake, Nose piercings, Car accident, Cancer, Heart attack, Meteorites, Plane crash, Car bomb, Locusts, Oil spill, McDonalds.

And so on. The list is literally infinite.

There is no amount of money or planning that can insulate us from these events. As the bumper sticker says, "THINGS OCCUR." (Or something like that.)

But there is really know way to live knowing that at any SECOND, things could deteriorate into utter shit. So i blunder on. What else can we do?

Nothing in particular triggered this in me, things are a bit uncertain right now in regards to selling our house, it might happen, it might not, either way we'll be fine. But it's the suspense that's driving me anxious.

Must practice denial skills.

12 comments:

Clowncar said...

and at no time is the illusion of control more transparent than when you are trying to sell a house. man, did I hate that process.

Steph said...

"Things occur." Giggle giggle giggle. I'm totally thinking about making a poster and sticking it on one of my front windows now. [wanders away, giggling]

heartinsanfrancisco said...

Yes, events happen. And sometimes it's really shitty.

nick said...

I know exactly what you mean. And I seem to get more bugged by that uncertainty as I grow older, even though I have less future. Especially with the Mega Hyper Global Economic Crisis. And the world domination of Starbucks. And underwear as outerwear. As you say, the list is infinite....

de said...

I'm sick over this oil spill. I don't know why, of all the news available, this one topic makes me physically ill every time I read about it.

although I didn't elaborate much in my last post, the idea of a deliberate and ongoing abandonment of power over the world is something I'm spending a lot of time thinking about. I've been looking into palliative care and end of life treatment, so this comes up as a technique. Also it is, (ahem) religious.

jaded said...

The whole house thing is an infinite emotional roller coaster until the papers are signed. We were, what's a polite phrase for it?, uh maybe, exchanging words, with our RE agent 2hours before closing via cellphone from a funeral procession. Real nice.

As for the rest of what you said, exactly...yet I always feels someone is in control and just tend to be peeved that it isn't me...I have power envy.

meno said...

clowncar, it just SUCKS, all the way around.

steph, i want royalties!

nick, and pants so baggy they must be cinched up just over the ass crack with a weapons grade belt.

de, it makes me ill too. All those animals, sick and oil-covered is just so awful it's hard to contemplate. I think physically ill is an appropriate response. And non-judgmental religion is okay with me.

jaded, if you were in control the world would be a better place.

meno said...

hearts, oops, i missed you. Must be the late hour. yeah, good stuff happens too, but it seems the preponderance of stuff IS shitty.

luckyzmom said...

Life is good.

Dick said...

I think that luckyzmom has the right idea and keep in mind that the alternative to living is not very good. There no doubt are a lot more good things that happen in our lives than there are bad things, but somehow the bad seem to be the most memorable. And then there is that idea of learning to tilt only at those things that we have a chance of having an affect on. Better to just ignore the others and not let them get under our skin.

Deb said...

I've decided life is random and people hate random because random can happen to anybody and anytime. Glad you're back. I missed you:)

TaraDharma said...

shit DOES happen, all the time. Whew, I dodged another bullet not being on that airplane in India...shit, I dodged another bullet when, when, when....

Life seems more random now then ever before...I take the good things and celebrate when I can. You just got to.